Just another update

(",)Hello Sweetz,

It's been awhile since I wrote?write? hehe i'm not sure of the past tense but yeah batah udah inda ku menulis and meluahkan apa yang tersirat di hati ku hehehe...so i already graduate and still clueless of what I want to do and I'm unemployed yesh n still waiting and waiting but urgh enuf to this side of depressing story..what I'm about to tell is another chapter or topic that exist in my life ...

1) Family
everyone loves their family right? and everyone agrees that family is the numero uno in their life. Family is the integral part and the backbone that built our confidence,personality and security.But what happens if the so call security of your life berantakan? or there is a slightly crack in the foundation of your life? ok i might be exagerating here but it does happen to some of us at some stage of our life..yatah kata org atu dipanggil dugaan.why tani kena duga? Wallahualam ati rahsia NYA jua.so back to my story..its my dad..sigh maybe he has that age crisis thingy i duno..it started when we go to this family picnic with my uncle family, my single aunt and my family. So to cut the story short my aunt brought her married beautiful indonesian friend and my dad kelawahan and gila bayang memikirkan ia.tho i think in this case of story my dad only bertepuk sebelah tangan. so what else lah it create a friction between my mum and dad. and as usual im stuck to be the person whom my mum pours her heart out to...ofcourse hearing this things makes me uneasy and OMG! susah kan cakap lah..im 23 years old and u dun expect this to happen..i might be biased but is side with my mum..i mean im a girl and i know how it feels when the person u love betrays u..whats worst?my mum used my name in one of their arguments ofcoz la being my dad he will hate me.i'm not lying here we are nrmally not speaking and now apatah g..kena marungi and he really does not like my presence nor that he speaks to me.even now my mum n dad relation improve a little aku wah jadi mangsa keadaan.but inda apalah asalkan my mum happy.my mum always used me and i always become the victim of the situation.the same thing happen betwen me and my cousin.nevertheless i still love you mum even you ruin my life i still love you..its for your happiness so its okay if i pay a little for the price..i mean you give so much to me you give me life..i love you no matter what. and Pa i love you to i just wish you are my dad the hero that i always think of. and sorry that i forgot that u r also human a man...so i forgive you..i love you too...but im hurting n it makes me feel like a kid again lost n full of fear

2. History.
To people out there who has never been in love and heart broken..i think you are one of the lucky ones...hmmph let me rephrase that people who are not in a relationship until they reach a certain maturity age is lucky..why because when you find the one that's it no history that will come back to haunt you...well i am not one of these people..i have a chain of dating history tho not all i can remember...erm i think i will continue this later..this is 3.07 am and huhu i think i just heard someone kick the bathroom door tho it is not coming from anyone huhu paranormal...

so here i am few days after that incident happen.hmmph what happen is that i heard a booom like someone has been kicking a door...thats why i stop blogging n abandone my still running pc n zoom into my bro's room where my other sibs play PS2 games..and i ask was it u guys who made the sound and they said no..and did u guys heard the sound n they said no i was like errrrkkkk scary ja.but apparently my lil sis also heard the booming sound.still frighten i ask my bro to accompany me to swtich off the pc hehehe n he go on checking everything la like doors,the toilet etc n nothing actually happen.which Alhamdullilah a relief.

Berbalik kepada that history? nvm just forget about it i dun tink its the right tym yet to said it here hehehe n beside i'm not in contact with the person anymore...teeheee :D so much for the drama...

till then love yewsss
salam

Job hunting.

Salam peeps,i miss technology quite btah jua ku nda blogging.rindu ku kan kau beb eyh*refering to my blog as beb*oh speaking of whch bila brg2 cargo smpai ah?mudahan jua lakas sampai by next wk n semua brg selamat amin..sepanjang cuti ani all i do is drumah spend tym wt fmili.ramadhan taun ani best sangat for alot of reason alhamdulilah.n few times kuar mkn wt kengkawan:-D gna mish some of dem pasal alhamdulilah semua dpt master.owh aku nda sambung pasal belum rezeki..pasal lyf?ada turun n naik la p a2 pkara biasa nda pyh mentn hehe.jobs?alum ku specificaly apply mana2 bt i do udah ambil borang spa n mudahan jua ada menyangkut nti.i wil nt memilih n hopfuly dpercepatkn ku dpt rezki amin amin doa2 saja. Til then aslmkum.

Job hunting.

Salam peeps,i miss technology quite btah jua ku nda blogging.rindu ku kan kau beb eyh*refering to my blog as beb*oh speaking of whch bila brg2 cargo smpai ah?mudahan jua lakas sampai by next wk n semua brg selamat amin..sepanjang cuti ani all i do is drumah spend tym wt fmili.ramadhan taun ani best sangat for alot of reason alhamdulilah.n few times kuar mkn wt kengkawan:-D gna mish some of dem pasal alhamdulilah semua dpt master.owh aku nda sambung pasal belum rezeki..pasal lyf?ada turun n naik la p a2 pkara biasa nda pyh mentn hehe.jobs?alum ku specificaly apply mana2 bt i do udah ambil borang spa n mudahan jua ada menyangkut nti.i wil nt memilih n hopfuly dpercepatkn ku dpt rezki amin amin doa2 saja. Til then aslmkum.

M nt perfect

Ok dz is the afta post frm my previous post kata certain sum1 dz post ani shows dat am mrh sngat tehee well.. Hehe ive warn ppl udah arah my early paragraph m bein emo.n dat certain sum1 jua cment dat tkut org len yg unintended trasa hmph for dat al i cn say ani blog ku as simple as that.n upto the reader pilih2 apa yg baik n nda,we are all mature adults here..n d blog ere exist 4me mcm besfwen ku udh.datz y i love the phrases.'love me,hate me,judge me,ignore me,whch category u belong is up to u' sal am human to n i espcialy dun lyk to drag org len to my smal insignifican prob..n it involves othr ppl wal hal its just my prob.n i dun start it.i dun act unles provoke eseh apakan buuu haha.a gd persn nda kn brag ia a perfct person n wen i sed diz i knw m nt dat perfct ok.dtz y i sed m human ada perasaan pandai sakit f kna sakiti.b4 u judge me put urslf in my s2tn or just dun meddle.sal i cnt hold smua..n ders owez 2 side of story..n thanx to certain sum1 u r owez der to listen to my nonsense thank u w.o u i tink il go crazy oledy hehe thnx 4 putting up wv my crap al dz tym.n yeah dz oso goes to yg dgr my prob many thanx 4 the kindnes

safely home

Salamz peepz

yesh im back home a land of judgemental,kepoh,sucking up, backstabbing ppl hehehe maybe im exagerating abit but yeah my revolves around this kind of ppl here what to do just have to deal with it or ignore it well i choose the later option *hmmph mcm salah spelling*ermm bth udah inda ku blogging inda tau apakan di buat well yeah i got my degree already yeay??? hehe nth lah i dun do well but i passed inda payah bayar govt balik atu yg scary tu.alhamdulilah syukur..n maybe next kraja or master? i duno yet n i dun apply for master d uk yet sebenarnya sal nth ah i just can't pit myself thru that 3 yrs monetary prob again huhu n beside i wan tmy famz to be there when i grad..owh pasal grad inda saya attend ceremony nya saya terpaksa nunggu sijil 4-6 weeks imagine imagine but i have transcript..n kn melapor this monday insya minta bawa ayahanda...fuh takut n nerbes sebenarnya but have to prepare apatah g org nobody no conexn mcm saya ini hehehe insya hopfully semua berjalan lancar amin.

hmmph bnyak gambar kan di upload rasa malas nye keh keh...nti tah saja kali eyh hehe liat lah krg ani...haish sama sapa ku bercakap ani kan?i tink im too bored sampai mcm crazy sikit haha having a monologue wiv myself

Goodbye Student lif eWelcome real life

Aslmkum,

i know its been awhile i havent log in and write in this blog sibuuuukkkkkkkk. bnyak yg terjadi yo my result not so good and now in few days i will be in brunei alhamdulilah..gona miss everythinga ll the memories bad and good ones the sweet and the bitter...miss my housemate diah n amal huhu i wonder if kami dapat jumpa kah inda lagi lapas ani but insya..hopefully kmi masih mesra sampai bila2 amin...

as for me i found something..i discover myself..and still int he process to improved myself inside and outside...owh i gtg now kan jalan dulu beli tix and beli tissue.btw im currently in bru hall pki laptop diah and the conexn suckz!!! til then

aslmkum
Z.M

Bella Italia :D